It's just too blurry looking. It doesn't visually convey a sense of clarity in any form. There is no real definition of "identity" to be lost (or found). Needs more brushwork to better define your shapes and values.

thank you for commnet MossyB. It is the first time when i try something like this.

I have no idea how this image is supposed to signify enlightenment.

Is the story of a man who does not know what he is because there is no face and Identity. He is brought down by this burden but at the same time he struggles to get out of this condition